Stepping Back In Time & Moving Forward

Do you ever hear a song that takes you back to another time. A time when you thought you knew all and yet life had so much more in store for you. The Dreams of travel and excitement.

Today was one of those days for me. Can someone please invent a machine that takes you back in time in order to relive the best times, and redo the worst. I am really going to date myself here, I heard the song Joy Ride today, and instantly I think about the summer before my senior year of High School. Riding in my best friends Geo Tracker with the top off in a really short tight tank top (you had to catch rays while driving) playing the radio as loud a possible.

Back then I just knew that I was going to take on the world. That once I was an adult that I would be able to do all the things that I wanted to do. I was so WRONG! I have not traveled and I am not the great writer or photographer that I once and still dream of being.

Being an adult is more work (that is not interesting and fun) and not near as much fun.

Is going to work everyday and paying the bills all that life has in store for me. I certainly hope not. I am ready to move forward

Searching for Myself

I am on a mission to figure out exactly who I am. I understand that I am a full time Mom, full time Single Parent, full time Admin, Girl Scout Co-Leader, Assistant Cheer Coach, full time Daughter, full time Maid ( that does windows & laundry). But who exactly am I.

Once upon a time I was satisfied with just being who I am. Now I seem to be searching for more. There have been lots of changes in my life, lots of people depending on me for something.

A good friend of mine continues to say that I don't have time for him anymore. I try hard to make time for my friends and still manage to stay on top of all the other things that I do. This is not an easy task. This particular from is the on that just recently started going thru a divorce. He has really be on again off again in my life for a long time, and I have just taken it for what it was and what he could give me. He was once the best friend I could have ever had, but I have changed and he has as well. I realize that I ask my friends to work around my schedule some as I try to do for them. Being a single mom means that I can't just come home and get on the phone with people and neglect the things as a mom that I need to do. Out and Out, my child comes first!!

Any suggestions how I can make this friend understand that it's not that I love him any less than I did ever before, it is just that I am not always able to give him all the time he seems to want or require of me.

Am I not a good friend anymore?