The Reply
TT finally emailed me back. I sent him an email on September 27th. I don’t know that I really expected him to write back. I sent a life update email, just a little update on all the things going on in my life and in MG’s life.
His reply was short and sweet, he asked no questions and gave no feedback on what I had written him. I don’t know that he really cares anymore. His message was very short and cold we used to have such great conversations for hours and hours, and emails were long and full of detail and grit.
This is all he said:
“I am doing okay.. I am between NE and VA.. but I am doing fine. Talking is something I need to remember to do.. I realize that I don't talk to anyone anymore. I personally like that. Because the crap I would get and I would cause to others just got old.. So I am better not being with anyone nor talking to anyone.. for now..”
I don’t really understand, but I guess he really doesn’t want me too right now.
For the last 11 years TT has been in and out of my life. What is it about certain people that you just continue to let back in your life again and again, whether they are just a friend or something more. TT has always just been a friend, but he was always considered a good friend in my life.
Maybe once a person becomes part of your past and not so much in your present that is where they are best off being. It seems that every time I let me past back in my present, things don’t go so well. This should be telling me something right?
I have been reminiscing lately to the good times I have had with some people. Life is full of changes, love, disappointments, bad choices, regrets, laughter, fun, challenges and best of all friendships.
His reply was short and sweet, he asked no questions and gave no feedback on what I had written him. I don’t know that he really cares anymore. His message was very short and cold we used to have such great conversations for hours and hours, and emails were long and full of detail and grit.
This is all he said:
“I am doing okay.. I am between NE and VA.. but I am doing fine. Talking is something I need to remember to do.. I realize that I don't talk to anyone anymore. I personally like that. Because the crap I would get and I would cause to others just got old.. So I am better not being with anyone nor talking to anyone.. for now..”
I don’t really understand, but I guess he really doesn’t want me too right now.
For the last 11 years TT has been in and out of my life. What is it about certain people that you just continue to let back in your life again and again, whether they are just a friend or something more. TT has always just been a friend, but he was always considered a good friend in my life.
Maybe once a person becomes part of your past and not so much in your present that is where they are best off being. It seems that every time I let me past back in my present, things don’t go so well. This should be telling me something right?
I have been reminiscing lately to the good times I have had with some people. Life is full of changes, love, disappointments, bad choices, regrets, laughter, fun, challenges and best of all friendships.
posted by AlwaysOnMyOwn | 4:03 PM
1 Comments:
I'm so glad I ran across this ... I know exactly what you mean! I think we let people back in because memories = safety and smiles, or so we think, and we think they will bring more of the same. Remember the pain. Easier said than done.
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