Punishment
Question of the day!
When is it time to stop punishing yourself for the mistakes you have made in the past. It will be 2 years in mid-July since I made what I would feel is about the dumbest mistake ever. I can't seem to cut myself any slack for it either.
There are days that I sit and try to figure out what in the world I could have been thinking. I let a man come back into my life that at one point and time was my Prince Charming. Let me tell you though, Prince Charming no longer exists and probably never did. I only saw in him what I wanted too. He or the mother of his children one calls my phone on a pretty regular basis, I have yet to figure out why. If I answer the phone they hang up, if I don't they won't leave a message so what is the point.
I could sit and list all the relationship mistakes that I have made in my life. I seem to continue to stack the up in a pile and I don't know when the pile will ever end.
So tell me, when do you know that you have found the right person. The person that you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with. I know everyone has flaws and you have to choose what flaws you can live with and what flaws you can't. Is it a feeling, do you just fit, even married couples have disagreements so what is the difference between arguments with your soul mate and arguments with a man that isn't?
My blog buddy (Mid-Thirties Life Crisis) let go of The Cowboy and The Kid. Yet she still has all the heat for this man, loves him to death and desires to be with him. So tell me MTLC why? Why did you give this guy up that you care so deeply about? You are the one that said that maybe you bailed out. Who says that you can't go to him and tell him that you want to give it another try? What is the worst that can happen, he tells you he doesn't want too, but think he has told you how much he cares for you and wants you. The Kid loves you to death. So if he says no you have the closure that you really do need or as you say, the fat lady will be singing!!
When is it time to stop punishing yourself for the mistakes you have made in the past. It will be 2 years in mid-July since I made what I would feel is about the dumbest mistake ever. I can't seem to cut myself any slack for it either.
There are days that I sit and try to figure out what in the world I could have been thinking. I let a man come back into my life that at one point and time was my Prince Charming. Let me tell you though, Prince Charming no longer exists and probably never did. I only saw in him what I wanted too. He or the mother of his children one calls my phone on a pretty regular basis, I have yet to figure out why. If I answer the phone they hang up, if I don't they won't leave a message so what is the point.
I could sit and list all the relationship mistakes that I have made in my life. I seem to continue to stack the up in a pile and I don't know when the pile will ever end.
So tell me, when do you know that you have found the right person. The person that you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with. I know everyone has flaws and you have to choose what flaws you can live with and what flaws you can't. Is it a feeling, do you just fit, even married couples have disagreements so what is the difference between arguments with your soul mate and arguments with a man that isn't?
My blog buddy (Mid-Thirties Life Crisis) let go of The Cowboy and The Kid. Yet she still has all the heat for this man, loves him to death and desires to be with him. So tell me MTLC why? Why did you give this guy up that you care so deeply about? You are the one that said that maybe you bailed out. Who says that you can't go to him and tell him that you want to give it another try? What is the worst that can happen, he tells you he doesn't want too, but think he has told you how much he cares for you and wants you. The Kid loves you to death. So if he says no you have the closure that you really do need or as you say, the fat lady will be singing!!
posted by AlwaysOnMyOwn | 12:05 PM
1 Comments:
The benefit I have with The Cowboy is that we've always had good communication & really never fought over anything. All my "bitches" were legit, even he admits that. Sometimes love just isn't enough. He's got responsibilities that he needs to handle and do on his own. I've got a life to live. Somehow when you add up his side & my side, the numbers just don't work. Maybe in a few years? Who knows.
These things I do know: I miss him on a daily basis - some days more than others. I value his friendship - more & more every day. I know he loves me & I love him. I'm free to seek out a new relationship with whomever I choose. He isn't seeing anyone and doesn't want anyone but me.
I can live with that for the time being. As long as I get a periodic "fix" of The Cowboy, and periodically see The Kid... life is good.
I've a sneaking suspicion that I'll be seeing a LOT of The Cowboy, The Kid and The Daughter this summer as the pool is near my house & TK & TD will need activities for the summer.
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